Uncategorized

  • You know what I just realized?

    Nothing about my life in the past few months has changed. 

     

    I have a full time job yeah. That's change. But it's nothing really exciting. I'm making money, so what?

     

    There's nothing bad about my life, that much is true.

     

    But I look at it and say...there's nothing good about it either. 

  • I feel dumb.

    Facebook: "Christy ___ is in an open relationship with Adam ___." 

     

    Me (thinking to myself): "Fucking ridiculous. I give up." 

     

    I just wish, for once in my life, I could feel like a priority to someone. Is that so difficult of a request? I used to think not, but maybe I'll have better luck if I print out a sign that says "Don't bother" and tape it to my forehead. 

     

    I have more questions buzzing around my head than a madman in solitary confinement.

  • I didn't miss you

    I've been gone for a few days. Mainly because I've been so tired from my new job, and busy hanging out with friends. I really didn't miss you xanga. It felt good to be away from the computer...away from all the STUPID BULLSHIT DRAMA going around. It felt good to be enjoying myself and doing something with my life. 

     

    Lately though, I have had a recurring nightmare about my father and it's led me to tears 3 straight mornings in a row...I will not go into detail right now. It's late. Maybe later I'll elaborate, if I even login...I have to work from tuesday to saturday. 5 straight days folks. Yeah, get used to me not being around here much. 

     

    It's a shame. I really have nothing that I feel inclined telling you. It's all just random happenings and things that don't matter to anyone but me. Oh well. You'll deal with it I'm sure. I don't have many readers to impress with big blogs about my life, so thank goodness for that. 

  • Epiphany

    These do not come often. They are the result of self examination and reflection, as well as the experiences I have had through the course of my lifetime, both good and bad. This is my mission statement.

     

    I am strong. I am stable. I am independent. I am happy. I am free. I live to see that these five things remain constant. Complicating things with selfish wants and desires, is what makes all of us human. If you let those things control you, you are lost. See what is. Not what could be. Do not regret, and do not let yourself repeat mistakes. Life is moving forward my friends, with or without you.

     

    My mind feels clear.

  • Back in time.

    If you could go back in time and relive any moment from your past, how far back would you go and why?

     

    I have my answer. May 17th of last year so I could smack that bitch back, and then I'd continue to go 3 years back of that to when I was so utterly stupid and depressed that I couldn't live my life normally. I'd definitely re-do some things I did to attempt making my life better.

     

    Okay xanga, your turn.

  • Joe has a full time job now.

     

    :)

  • I'm bored.

     

    So I'm doing this all day today.

     

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yI9QqCCzmcU&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

  • Enjoy

  • you cant expect me to be completely understanding all of a sudden. just doesnt work like that...of course i'm gonna be hurt and of course i have a problem with it. this sort of thing has happened all my life but it doesnt change the fact that it still hurts every time i'm lied to. 

     

    someone always winds up getting hurt one way or the other.

  • Didn't see that one coming.