February 24, 2013

• Sad

  I didn't sleep last night. I don't know why, I just didn't.

  I am extremely sad today. I miss my Uncle Jimmy more than anything. I regret alot of things, but number one on that list would be passing on the opportunity to see him last year. The feeling absolutely sucks. It's horrible. And I have two grandparents who are in their early 80s now. When they are gone from the world, I will have nobody to look up to. And not to mention, I will not be able to function for who knows how long.

  Times like this make me realize that it is a bonus to have a girlfriend, that ONE person I could turn to for emotional support when things go from bad to worse. That person who will walk with me through the shit as long as it takes to get me out. I've always dealt with emotional things myself. Maybe that's what's made me into the blunt asshole that I am. Having no support, no source of comfort, is very very difficult. Especially when the only thing I can do is sit here and type on a computer screen hoping it will help somehow, knowing it won't.

  Such is life.

  I need a text buddy for the day. Please choose to volunteer.

  • 12:13 pm
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